Hello.
Im back.
And Im empty.
Writing is therapy.
Free therapy, might I add.
I wake to the noises of a rooting little one all through out the night.
Im up
with a jump,
I bound up the stairs.
I lift her and kiss her and hold her loving stares.
I feed her from my own body
and lay her gently back down
make my way to bed
Dare not make a sound.
6 am
I wake
yet again
to
"MOMMYYYYYY, MOMMY!!"
Sleep is over- the day begins.
I smile, I hug, I kiss
and
I love.
I cook and prepare
Double check what is there
No toxins, no fluoride, no pesticides please.
No hormones, no chemicals,
every single label I read.
"Mommy, no like dis."
"Baby, its good for you eat what I make."
"MOMMY, NO!"
to time out you go,
no breakfast today.
Children, no running.
Please, walking feet.
My patience is slowly
Draining right out of me
I laugh, I play,
Dance, sing songs
imagine all day
and correct all their wrongs.
No hitting
Time out
No back talk
Time out
No jumping
No biting
Nothing sassy
Time. OUT!
Noses in corners
and tears on the wall
Yes, I know what you think-
Im no fun at all.
Nap time.
You sleep.
Silence.
is fine.
I wipe, scrub, and sweep.
Oh you're awake!
So bright eyed,
refreshed.
I however,
Have just caught my breath.
Ok let's play
sing and dance
the rest of the day.
Smile, wave
Hello, hello
how are you?
Huh? What is what?
Oh its just baby food.
Ah your hair IS cut.
How nice.
In the last year…
Ive cut mine twice.
"Hey! Where is your filter?
and wow your attitude
is a bit off kilter.
Where is your drive?
Your commitment, your finesse?
Why don't you try
To strive for your best?"
Mingle, entertain
Just think before you say
"Im so sorry. I forgot what it means to be sane
Did you forget I speak to toddlers all day?"
Ok, you get it
you can imagine, you understand
just wave and smile
look pretty, shake a hand
Hurry please!
there is no time more opportune
"Forgive me,"
I say
"I was empty by noon."
